Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Planning My Way Back

Getting a late start today. Didn't sleep well last night. I am feeling better physically, just really, really tired. 

Having been sick these past few days, I have gotten behind in so much and I'm feeling overwhelmed. I have so much school work and house work to do that I don't know where to begin. 

I think maybe the first place to start is my planner. Getting it onto paper and starting with the first thing on the list. 

Yeah, that's it. I may not be able to do it all today, but I can do a lot if I just get started. 

Alright. Thank you listening to me as I think this out.

Wishing you a happy, well-planned and well-lived day!

Tuesday, February 25, 2014

Sick Thoughts

You know, I think much of what I have been feeling has been due to illness. I have been sick off and on since last Thursday, and today I seem to have had a relapse.

Never underestimate the mind-body connection. Sometimes irritability and low mood are due to somatic illness and not necessarily depression. 

Just wanted to share that with you. Now, off to bed.

Monday, February 24, 2014

Soap Box du Jour

All day long I've been on the brink of crying. I don't know why. I'm also ridiculously irritable. I'm also astounded at the cost of my medication and the bureaucracy and ignorance of insurance companies. 

I just paid $798.18 as a co-pay on one month's supply of Abilify; and I paid $115.49 for one month of Lamictal which is 100% of its cost. Why they won't approve Lamictal for me at $115.49 a bottle, but will approve Ability at $978 a bottle, I'll never know. 

Why is it that the insurance company is the one that dictates which meds are appropriate? Medication choice should be determined by the doctor with some input from the patient - not by some guy in a cubicle farm, wielding the Manual of Insurance-Acceptable Treatments which is updated each year by a "committee" consisting of one doctor and 19 accountants....

THAT is what is wrong with U.S. health care. It's run by companies that are "for profit", not "for patient". Although in the case of my insurance company, I'm not sure what they're thinking. They're operating at a loss with me. It looks like I'll be reaching my deductible very shortly...and then they'll have to pay $978 a month. Good!