Showing posts with label adventure. Show all posts
Showing posts with label adventure. Show all posts

Monday, March 2, 2015

New Year

Happy {belated} 2015! 

It's been about four months since you last heard from me. {I think I needed to press the "reset" button.} In that time, I made it through yet another holiday season sober; I had a few relapses of depression with subsequent medication changes; I switched to a plant-based diet (giving up meat and dairy entirely); I completed my associate degree in psychology; and I continued to work on my substance abuse counseling certificate.

So now that I'm back and ready to blog again, here's the plan:





  • Each week on PHTA, I will blog about my continuous "adventures" in recovery and will share with you information and resources about mental illness and substance abuse. 


  • In addition, this year, PHTA will also feature Wellness Wednesdays - a weekly post with information, ideas, and resources for maintaining wellness - whether you suffer from mental illness or not.


  • And finally, I encourage you, dear reader, to submit topic suggestions for PHTA posts - either in the comments below, on Facebook (Pink Hi-Top Adventures), or by email at pink.hi.tops@gmail.com.

Have a great week and a healthy and happy 2015!

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ABOUT THIS BLOG:

In 2005, I entered substance abuse treatment for alcohol addiction. My last drink was November 18th of that year, and I've been sober since. Though my life changed for the better as recovery progressed, sobering up was really only the beginning. It drained the pool to expose the disorders that lay beneath.

In August 2012, I was diagnosed with major depression. I was also diagnosed with dysthymia {long-term, low-grade depression} and anxiety disorder. In September of that year, I checked into partial hospitalization mental health care, and was fortunate enough to be treated by very caring and enlightened doctors. Since then, I've been emerging from the grey veil of depression, anxiety, and addiction that shrouded my self-awareness for over four decades. {I’m 48 now.}

This blog is a chronicle of my continuous recovery and progress toward achieving my goals. With it, I hope to inspire and inform those suffering from depression, anxiety, and addiction with personal stories, resources, and a little humor!

The blog title is inspired by my favorite pair of Converse Chuck Taylor's that I wore when I felt my happiest and freest. They were pinkthus the title. 

Interesting to note: when I was depressed (before treatment), I tended to wear only black, white, and / or grey clothing. Now I find I love color - lots of different colors - especially pink. To me, pink represents innocence, fun, and lightheartedness - something I am now experiencing in recovery.

The "Adventures" part of the title is the part of the blog in which I will chronicle my new adventures with a recovering brain. 

So that's it: the why of the title, pink hi-top adventures

If you have any ideas for posts that you would like to see, feel free to post them here on the blog or on the Facebook page (https://www.facebook.com/pages/Pink-Hi-Top-Adventures/411429458973219?ref=hl), or email me at pink.hi.tops@gmail.com.




Tuesday, March 4, 2014

Pink Hi-Tops


I recently had a request from a reader (thanks Erin!) about why hi-tops and why pink? Well here's why:


In august 2012, I was diagnosed with major depression. I was also diagnosed with dysthymia {long-term, low-grade depression} and anxiety disorder. In September of that year, I checked into partial hospitalization mental health care, and was fortunate enough to have been treated by very caring and enlightened doctors. Since then, I have been emerging from the grey veil of depression and anxiety that shrouded my self-awareness for almost four decades. {I’m 47 now.}

This blog is a chronicle of my continuous recovery and progress toward achieving my goals. With it, I hope to inspire and inform those suffering from depression, anxiety, and addiction with personal stories, resources, and a little humor!

The blog title is inspired by my favorite pair of Converse Chuck Taylor's that I wore when I last felt my happiest and freest. 

"Pink" is the color of those original hi-tops. When I was depressed (before treatment), I tended to wear only to blacks, whites, and greys in my clothing color choices. Now I find I love different colors - especially pink. Pink represents innocence, fun, and lightheartedness - something that I am now experiencing in recovery.

The "Adventures" part of the title is the part of the blog in which I will chronicle my new adventures with a recovering brain. I haven't done a lot of that yet. Most of this blog has been a record of my daily ups and downs in recovery and a little psycho-education; but I think I'd like to share some of my life experiences (adventures) in recovery as well. Look for it in the coming weeks.

So that is it. The why of the title, pink hi-top adventures


If you have any ideas for posts that you would like to see, feel free to post them here on the blog or on the Facebook page (https://www.facebook.com/pages/Pink-Hi-Top-Adventures/411429458973219?ref=hl), or email me at pink.hi.tops@gmail.com.

Thursday, September 5, 2013

Pink Hi-Top Adventures



The Far Side®, by Gary Larson

For those of you new to this blog, I thought I'd give you a little background. Pink Hi-Top Adventures is my first blog ever! I started it back in January 2013 as a chronicle of my ongoing recovery from depression, anxiety, and alcoholism. 

Almost eight years ago, I entered treatment for alcohol addiction. At the time, I thought it would resolve whatever it was inside that was stopping me from moving forward in life; however, it only drained the pool and uncovered the disease within.

Though I had been anxious and depressed but functioning for years, I finally imploded a year ago. I spent about three weeks in bed - unable to work, unable to shower, unable to function. My thoughts were turning darker too. I fantasized about death and hurting myself; and for the first time ever, it felt comforting and logical.

When I shared this with my {wonderful!} husband, he reached out to my therapist; and I was admitted to a partial hospitalization treatment program {PHP}. There I was diagnosed with major depression, dysthymia {long-term, low-grade depression}, and generalized anxiety disorder. Fortunately, I was treated by wonderful doctors and therapists; and, though I've experienced periodic set-backs along the way, I've been doing better overall since.

This blog is a chronicle of my continuous recovery and progress toward achieving my goals - one of which is graduating from college with a psychology degree. {I've been in college - on and off - since September 1984; and graduating would be quite an achievement indeed!} I also hope to inspire and inform with personal stories, resources, and a little humor!

The blog title is inspired by my favorite pair of Converse Chuck Taylor’s that I wore when I last felt my happiest and freest. 

And finally, Pink Hi-Top Adventures is a place for you too. Please feel free to comment and discuss - either in the comments section of this blog, or on the blog's Facebook page!

Thanks for reading!

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Here is an overview of some of my favorite posts from the past six months:

Addiction:


Thoughts from my addiction (2/27/13)
Alcoholic or problem drinker? (3/14/13)
How do you help and addict (6/19/13)
Take me out to the ballgame! (8/12/13)

Anxiety:

Obstacles (5/22/13)
Social Anxiety (5/29/13)

Depression:

Notes from the Vortex (2/11/13)
Life (3/7/13)
Lifeline (3/8/13)
Grey veil...again?! (3/16/13)
Overcoming...inertia! (3/19/13)
Can't sleep (4/23/13)
Do the next right thing - part II (4/25/13)
The daily struggle (6/6/13)
Taking down the wall (6/7/13)
Contained emotions (6/13/13)

Stigma:

"Nervous breakdown" (3/6/13)
Depression is not a character defect (3/27/13)

Wellness:

Never underestimate your own power! (2/26/13)
Acceptance (3/1/13)
Recovery step #2: sleep, damn it! (3/5/13)
Rebirth (3/30/13)
Wellness part I: physical (4/26/13)
Change is possible part II (6/27/13)
Seven steps to mental health (8/2/13)
Take me out to the ballgame! (8/12/13)
Climbing back up (8/18/13)






Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Road Trip Part II

Do one thing that scares you every day.
 - Eleanor Roosevelt                                      


Notes from the road:

Do something that scares you. Do something that scares you. Do something that...well here I am. On my way back from the conference, I'm sitting here in Cracker Barrel - alone! I don't think I've ever gone to a sit down eatery alone before - not even to a casual restaurant like this. I simply would have diedI know it may sound crazy, but the very thought of it has terrified me. 

Damn you Eleanor Roosevelt!!

Wait, I think...I think I actually enjoy this. I don't know what I was afraid of. The number of people seeing me...seeing me eat and sit alone? I don't think anyone is even noticing me. And no, I won't write in my journal the whole time; and I won't take refuge in my iPhone the whole time either, faking like I'm checking messages... 

Holy cow! I think I just saw myself. Did you ever see yourself? No, I'm not hallucinating. Did you ever encounter someone who totally resembles you?! A young "me" just came in with her husband and baby and at first glance...wow! Ca-razy!!

Ah, dinner. There's something about comfort food...and there's something about being bold and dining alone! I think I'm gonna do this again!


Tuesday, July 16, 2013

PHT Hits the Road


I am sitting here in a hotel room, thunder rumbling outside and a PBS documentary on Lewis and Clark playing on the TV. I'm electrified with excitement right now. 

Yesterday, I set out on a mini-adventure. I headed first to visit my parents in Maryland, and then to Williamsburg, Virginia for an addiction counseling student workshop, where I am now, . This is my first solo trip since my hospitalization last year - and in fact, my first in quite a few years. Another small step for mankind, but a giant leap for me!  

I'm blazing my own personal expedition; and it fills me with gratitude for having been given this whole crazy experience called life. I think I'll open up the curtains, snuggle up in bed, fall asleep to the lightning show, and wake up fully refreshed in the morning.  

Ya' know, I think I'm going to have to do more mini adventures by myself - I kind of like it!














Friday, March 22, 2013

"Follow Your Bliss"


Find a place inside where there's joy, and the joy will burn out the pain.
 - Joseph Campbell   


This picture was taken on a family vacation to Wyoming. I love this picture because of the look on my face - it was a moment of pure bliss! Since I was a little girl, I've been in love with horses, but growing up in the suburbs of a big city, followed by all the trappings of adulthood buried this childhood desire - until this vacation.

For me, a horse is great medication! What is your "horse"? What makes you happy? Is there something you loved as a child that has fallen by the wayside over the years because of lack of time, money, or proximity, or because it isn't "grown-up" enough? Well, find that thing and DO IT - somehow make it happen. Life is full enough of the things we have to do, why not do at least one thing that you truly want to do. You deserve JOY in your life, but only you can make it happen; so here's your first assignment:
  1. Think about one thing that brings you pure joy {children, mate, family, don't count this time!} If you are having trouble with this one, try going back to childhood for ideas. ;)
  2. Draft a realistic plan to make it happen - realistic, but not self-limiting.
  3. START.
  4. See what unfolds! 


Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors where there were only walls.
 - Joseph Campbell

Monday, March 18, 2013

Saturday, March 9, 2013

Unleash Your Soul!




This is the theme of the day!

I just awoke from a good night's sleep - full of optimism and grateful to be alive. 

I wish you, dear reader, a wonderful day / night. Let us unleash our souls...and let the games begin!!

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

pink hi-top adventures

well, once again the veil lifts and i emerge from the whirlpool.

last week, the psychiatrist tweaked my medications, adding some to assist the others {sometimes the body adapts to medications and adjustments become necessary - for more info, see WebMd.}; i am pleasantly surprised to say that  i am looking forward…yes, looking forward... to the remainder of this week!

just glancing over pink hi-top adventures, i noticed the design and masthead look very...youthful - perhaps not quite age 46? but, i truly feel the design reflects the person i am when not depressed / anxious ~ my true self ~ the self i last was as a child.



for it was around age 7 that anxiety began sticking to my skin like prickly burrs, and depression slowly grew as its sickly offspring. neither was all-consuming or enough to stop me in my tracks until adulthood. yet, only now am i beginning to return to that original self - not a child per sae - but ME.

when i originally started this blog a few years ago, it was an attempt to chronicle my “adventures” in mid-life. you see, as a child i always wanted to be a girl scout, but never shared this desire with my parents. lord knows if i did, they would have signed me up, pronto…and that would have ejected me full-throttle into the highly-charged rejection-potential of...socializing with my peers! 

decades later, after serving as a leader for my daughters’ troops, I realized how much I missed out on by not taking a chance: bonding, team building, friendships, fun, and self-confidence that i desperately wanted and needed. i had a loving, supportive family, and rose to success in other areas of my life, but i truly i missed out on the sisterhood and adventures of scouting. this blog was originally intended to be my own “troop” launch pad - a place for me to document my own adventures, challenges, learning, and explorations while making friends along the way. though it fizzled out as I did, i think the goal remains the same.

this is the chronicle of a great adventure – an adventure out of the darkness of mental illness and into life. i look forward to where it may lead, and i embrace the idea of learning and making friends along the way!

stay tuned….