Sunday, February 3, 2013


okay, so i haven’t blogged in a while because i am very busy now, and because i have been waiting for the perfect thing to say…

…but of course, there is no perfect thing to say. life is not perfect; i am not perfect; and recovery from depression, or anything else for that matter, is anything but a perfect upward trajectory. in fact, it appears to be two steps forward, one step back.

since my first, enthusiastic post of a month ago, i have returned to work and college. this is all good, but any illusions i had of “normal” feeling good all of the time have been shattered. i have to remember what i learned in php {partial hospitalization}: the medication only gives you enough “normalcy” to enable you to do the work required to get well. and work it is!

after riding the turbo-boost of fresh starts and change at the dawn of the new year, i find myself mired down in the work part now - feet slightly stuck in the ground. negative thoughts still rattle around my head like flies in a glass jar. and i know the only way to get well is to break the pattern of negative thinking by re-framing self-defeating thoughts and achieving small victories each day...and this requires work.

what will i work on today?

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