I am worried. I think that depression may be creeping back in like a gloomy fog. For the past two days, I've been very irritable and negative. Then this morning, when repeating my positive affirmations (which I do in the car when I'm alone):
"I am a happy person...", snuffle, sniff, sniff, "I draw to me all good things...", tears stream down my cheeks, "I am aware of the good around me...", and I began sobbing uncontrollably.
Maybe it is the weather - which here in Northern Virginia today is as gloomy as my mood. Maybe it is the change in meds. Or maybe Effexor was the thumb in the hole in the dike.
I don't know. Just hope this is a temporary glitch in the force, because I am not sure I can take another episode of major depression.