Saturday, October 25, 2014

Dressin' My Way Up

I have A LOT of studying to do this weekend. Got a little {actually waaaay} behind after being under the weather this week.

And when I woke up this morning, I could feel the grey shadow of depression creeping over me, and once again, I almost caved in. Then I remembered my KWRAP {Karen's Wellness Recovery Action Plan} - a toolbox of recovery maintenance techniques.

Yes, I had to do the cliche, cheesy selfie...
One of my tools to stave off depression is to "dress up". This entails taking a shower, getting dresssed, doing my hair, and putting on a little make-up. Now, I'm not suggesting that we need to get all dolled up every time we make a public appearance. It's just that self-care is one of the things that goes out the window with depression. Sometimes forcing oneself to take a shower, getting out of pajamas or sweats, and prettying up a bit can go a long way toward a better outlook.

This is what I did this morning. Hadn't showered in about four days {sorry, I know...}, but I reluctantly got myself into the shower, put on an outside-of-the-home outfit and a little make-up, and now I'm feeling more ready to tackle the day.

Thursday, October 23, 2014


I'm depressed again. It sometimes happens when I'm sick, and I haven't been well since the weekend. In addition, my psychiatrist lowered my dose of Zoloft. He suspects my sleep issues and inability to get out of bed may be a side effect of the higher dose I was put on a month ago.

Regardless the cause, I'm indeed depressed. I have to say, though, this time I'm fighting it with what little energy I have. I got out of bed, made the bed to seal up the Vortex, and have been following the to do list in my planner. I'm miserable, but I'm going to trust the process. Trust that keeping active and seeing some small accomplishments will help.

On another note, my adorable puppy ate the laces off my pink hi-tops. So I can't even put them on to tap into their super powers! 

Tuesday, October 21, 2014


So I know I promised to complete the mental health series - which was originally supposed to be done during Mental Illness Awareness week - two weeks ago. But alas, I've gotten behind once again.

Haven't been feeling well lately. I've had a difficult time sleeping  - not lack of sleep, but sleeping too much. My energy level has plummeted. In addition, I've been sick for the past few days. (Sorry for the woe-is-me blog, but I wanted to let you know what's up.)

And today, I'm mentally overwhelmed. I have so much to do to catch-up from being sick, yet I feel like a deer in the headlights!

It doesn't help that I read a blog this morning about a little boy who was bounced around the foster care system - carrying with him a little trash back full of his belongings and his good report card in the hopes of showing that he was worthy of being loved. Well, because he was not a baby, he was never adopted and ended up in the juvenile detention system.

My heart broke in a thousand pieces, and now I'm sad thinking about all the children out there who just want to be loved...

I have to snap out of it and get things done!

I'll just have to take it one step at a time. :/