I'm in a bad place right now - not Vortex-level-bad, but getting precariously close to the edge. The warning signs:
- I'm getting more and more anxious and irritable (for no reason);
- I'm continuously scanning my body for symptoms of my untimely demise;
- I'm überly {new word?} self-critical; and,
- "Automatic negative thoughts" pop out of nowhere.
Truth be told, I've been a little whole-lot sloppy in recovery for some time now and it's catching up with me. I got complacent. Though I've seen a psychiatrist regularly, I haven't been to a therapist in a couple of years now.
Also, fall 2017 hit me harder than expected - not so much because of seasonal affective disorder, though. I just didn't realize how the first anniversary of my brothers dying and death would hit me like a ton of bricks...and...
I'm 51 now...
and then because of pharmacy refill-syncing issues and doctors office's holiday closures, I got waaaaay off schedule on my meds. In fact, I did what one should ABSOLUTELY NOT DO: I quit taking two of the three meds I take, because I got so behind on doses.
SO...
how the hell to get back on track?!
STEP ONE: This post
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